At the beginning I owe you an explanation why I'm starting this publications activity. I'll introduce myself and the story into depths of my mind will begin.

It's early summer afternoon, the temperature is mild and I can hear the rustle of leaves caused by calm wind. I have plenty of time to deep dive into my thoughts, although I just finished meal preparation and I have few daily obligations. Nevertheless, I decided it is finally the moment to write this and I hope that in future I'll publish many posts.

Well, at this moment, my mind recalled the phrase „I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream”, which is title of short story, however the content is irrelevant here. In the other corner of my mind there is an opinion that Paul the Apostle had Geschwind syndrome, which includes hypergraphia, i.e. intense desire to write. Well, I feel something similar, I feel I have many, many things to tell.

Someone may ask, who will be reading such texts in the era of Dead Internet, when probably majority of content is AI-generated? What added value I can introduce? Well, I think I have an unusual view of the world and a skill to think deep and I waited too long to gain a belief that my way of looking at the world is not bizarre perversion. I remember when found out that Google released Chrome web browser, it was 2008 or 2009. I had the feeling that something is off, but then I hadn't and insight to analyze this feeling and I was very unsure that my opinions can have a value for someone. And we are here and now, in such reality, where people lost the ability to differentiate between a real world and an info-sphere, not to mention that everybody lives in his own virtual reality.

I spent the dark years of my life overthinking a lot, but somehow I managed to redirect my thoughts from self-humiliation into meticulous analysis about the surrounding world, people and my own mechanisms of perception and deduction. I read a lot about history of thought, philosophy, religion, psychology, history and esotericism. I have very deep self-insight, unfortunately I was so unsure, so unconvinced that it not a delusion, for a long, long time. Finally, it is time to come out of the shadow and stimulate the intellectual part of the society into new directions. I'm convinced that my opinion has value.

Nevertheless, I have awful linguistic skills and I have difficulties with transforming non-linear states of my associative mind into a linear, tidy sequence of words. It's been two hours since I started writing, and the whole text I wrote so far takes up a quarter of my screen. Nevertheless I tend to polish these skills, let's hope that future posts will be easier to absorb for a potential reader.

I promised that I'll introduce myself, so I'm a graduated computer scientist working as a software engineer or programmer, near research and development. I in my mid-thirties, so many can think that I'm rather young, however I see myself as a bit old-school. The whole idea of vibe-coding does not fit into me, actually I'm on the opposite site, I enjoy when I understand the principles behind a system. Hence, I called this ancient developer blog. I undermine the idea that humanity is on it's peak and even more that currently uncommon worldviews shall be rejected.

I tend to write two kinds of posts - the first includes pure technical knowledge about programming, system administration, self-hosting and similar. This post fits into second kind, where I'm going to publish my own opinions about the world.

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